Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Poll: Do you suffer from OCD?

Share your stories? Here is mine, if you would care to take the time to listen.. I've had it since i was about i don't no, around 5-6 maybe? It's bad. I CANNOT shake peoples hands, or touch door handles without washing my hands or putting on hand sanitizer. (hand sanitizer if i am in public, then once i get to a sink, i have to wash them again.) If someone sneezes, coughs, ect, i CANNOT breathe around that area, or i fear that i will get sick, which is another thing.. I have the BIGGEST fear of getting sick, just the thought of it gives me anxiety.. If i don't feel well, i think i'm going to puke, then i panic and it isn't good.. My routine is: Before i go to bed (when the lights are on), i have to tap one of my kitchen cupboards twice on the bottom area of it, then twice on the top, tap each of my door knobs on the like lock part four times, or i fear that someone will rob or come in and hurt my family in the night, then after i do that, i turn the lights off then do the same thing. Next, i go to the bathroom and brush my teeth, but before i do that, i have to turn the water on the highest hottness it will go, then run the water all over my brush just incase it touched the other brushes, then i get toilet paper and take the bit of toothpaste that would be coming out, and squeeze it out incase other toothbrushes touched it. Next after that, i go the living room and we have a table with a lamp, and i tap that four times, turn the lamp off, tap it four more times. After that, i go to my bedroom and tap my table thing 19 times, then walk to my bed, tap the bed post 11 times say "amen" do the same thing, tap it 11 times then say "amen" again or i think that something bad will happen to me in my sleep, and saying "amen" will like protect me i guess. then i get in bed like lay down, then tap my bedpost 22, 12, 8, 6, 5, and then 4 times, IN THAT ORDER, no joke at all, yes, that much.. :| Then i have to pray, and if i don't, i think that something bad will happen to my family. And my brain keeps like telling me that if i don't that like for example, i have to pray for things like my dad not getting cancer, otherwise my mind will tell me that he will get cancer if i don't pray for him not getting it.. With touch lamps, they have to always be set on the second setting, because i don't like odd numbers, but that's only with certain things. IT'S A LIVING HELL PEOPLE, i am not joking at all.. It is ******* torture.. :'[ And i can't stop.. I cry all the time it's seriously horrible, i don't tell my friends or they will probably think that i am crazy.. I can kind of hide it in public, but when i'm at home, that's a WHOLE nother story.. I'm jealous of all my friends because they do things that i would NEVER do, like set something down, then eat it if it was sitting on a table without a plate. But those are some of my rituals that i have to do.. By now you probably think i'm crazy, but it's like a mental condition kind of? Thaks SO much if you actually read this whole thing. Share your stories, and don't be rude please..

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